It was a good day!
I got paid for my racket for ABS-CBN RNG!
I love love love it!
The day started with a bang and I was feeling pretty high and powerful and invincible until I heard a certain news.
I am not to feel unsympathetic and unsupportive but Puh-leaaase! you should start with me. I really WANT this! Do I really? You could say that I am just the type of person who has to want something to get fixated about to be able survive. But I do and I think I can swing this. Please let me swing this. I want this! Universe hear me!
Monday, May 28, 2012
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Friday, May 25, 2012
writer stereotype
I have been reading a lot of articles lately and all of them are discussing how a writer seems to be detached from their families, how they are referred to as rather strange and weird. And in all honesty, in my experience these assumptions can be true.
I am honestly socially inept, that I find it uncomfortable socializing on a deeper level. Whenever I meet new people, I always have to have a wingman, or a another person that I know and I am comfortable with.
Putting me alone in a situation where these people know each other and don't know me, will definitely stress me out. After some time, I will definitely need my alone time to recharge and center myself.
Whenever I have to socialize with relatives, I find it hard to keep up, mostly because I can't think and I have certain paranoid tendencies. What they think of me, or are they judging me. Added to the fact that I am judging them.
It is also entirely different when I travel alone and talk to strangers. I am excited and eager because I control the situation. There is also no commitment. After chatting with them or doing things with them, you can leave them alone and there is not going to be an issue.
But I always try to appear as bubbly and jolly and superficial. Because that's really who I am. I am easy to please. But harder to understand.
I like mainstream films but I love the deeper ones. I follow fashion trends. I want to drink with buddies and go on a spa day with girlfriends. I am neurotic. I smoke but I don't drink. I go to the gym and try the organic nonsense and eat a burger meal the next day. I like mystery and comedies. I like teen dramas and boring men-driven shows like Mad Men. I do normal things with others but I satiate my strange desires when alone. I like to cry for no reason at all or to something that to others may sound really silly. I like to get mad and smash bottles. I believe that personal appearance rules over intellect. But being really manipulative with how to use your beauty will rule the earth.
Often I like to keep my emotions to myself. I feel naked when I open up to someone. it scares me. I am the one to answer Nothing when asked if there is something bothering me,. Opening up to someone about my feelings is the least I will do to a friend or to a significant other.
I also think I want things because others want them. Same with work and with men. I can compete for the heck of it. It's not in my nature. But just to shake things up a bit, I will.
I keep a game and happy face because that's how I cope. I am not always weird. I am not always normal. Otherwise I'd just be another stereotype.
I am honestly socially inept, that I find it uncomfortable socializing on a deeper level. Whenever I meet new people, I always have to have a wingman, or a another person that I know and I am comfortable with.
Putting me alone in a situation where these people know each other and don't know me, will definitely stress me out. After some time, I will definitely need my alone time to recharge and center myself.
Whenever I have to socialize with relatives, I find it hard to keep up, mostly because I can't think and I have certain paranoid tendencies. What they think of me, or are they judging me. Added to the fact that I am judging them.
It is also entirely different when I travel alone and talk to strangers. I am excited and eager because I control the situation. There is also no commitment. After chatting with them or doing things with them, you can leave them alone and there is not going to be an issue.
But I always try to appear as bubbly and jolly and superficial. Because that's really who I am. I am easy to please. But harder to understand.
I like mainstream films but I love the deeper ones. I follow fashion trends. I want to drink with buddies and go on a spa day with girlfriends. I am neurotic. I smoke but I don't drink. I go to the gym and try the organic nonsense and eat a burger meal the next day. I like mystery and comedies. I like teen dramas and boring men-driven shows like Mad Men. I do normal things with others but I satiate my strange desires when alone. I like to cry for no reason at all or to something that to others may sound really silly. I like to get mad and smash bottles. I believe that personal appearance rules over intellect. But being really manipulative with how to use your beauty will rule the earth.
Often I like to keep my emotions to myself. I feel naked when I open up to someone. it scares me. I am the one to answer Nothing when asked if there is something bothering me,. Opening up to someone about my feelings is the least I will do to a friend or to a significant other.
I also think I want things because others want them. Same with work and with men. I can compete for the heck of it. It's not in my nature. But just to shake things up a bit, I will.
I keep a game and happy face because that's how I cope. I am not always weird. I am not always normal. Otherwise I'd just be another stereotype.
restlessness
I am free this weekend and I feel restless.
You know I got no deadlines and my head is running all over the place and I am busying myself with this new venture and cleaning the apartment and all the shit.
One part of me thinks that I need a vacation.
What do you think?
You know I got no deadlines and my head is running all over the place and I am busying myself with this new venture and cleaning the apartment and all the shit.
One part of me thinks that I need a vacation.
What do you think?
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Endings and beginnings
And it's okay!
It's the start of something new :)
New ventures and experiences like this photobooth business I am in.
Try this!
Friday, May 18, 2012
Konti na lang
I'm currently writing the finale of Wako Wako and suddenly I'm reduced to tears.
I had to stop writing becausse I was bawling all over the place and i cannot catch my breath.
That's when I realized I have to pour all my emotions in a blog post. need to let this all out because I am writing punchlines. As it is there is an unspeakable melancholy tone when you read where the story is going.
Frustrations apathy. I try to be as jaded as a stone. But hey, i think it's good news that I have this great monster of a heart, of emotion just seepign its way until this breakdown. Yes i is a breakdown shaking mess all over the place. Push it and pull it. Until i reach the abyss. I feel like drowning.
I had to lie in bed in fetal position thinking about nothing before I begin.
And now i am not halfway there but i hope i get there. as it is noone cares of your emotional state because u gotta deliver. deliver fast and deliver good.
why i cant i stop crying over something thats supposed to be happy?
I had to stop writing becausse I was bawling all over the place and i cannot catch my breath.
That's when I realized I have to pour all my emotions in a blog post. need to let this all out because I am writing punchlines. As it is there is an unspeakable melancholy tone when you read where the story is going.
Frustrations apathy. I try to be as jaded as a stone. But hey, i think it's good news that I have this great monster of a heart, of emotion just seepign its way until this breakdown. Yes i is a breakdown shaking mess all over the place. Push it and pull it. Until i reach the abyss. I feel like drowning.
I had to lie in bed in fetal position thinking about nothing before I begin.
And now i am not halfway there but i hope i get there. as it is noone cares of your emotional state because u gotta deliver. deliver fast and deliver good.
why i cant i stop crying over something thats supposed to be happy?
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Ugh
have you ever had a frienemy?
Yung tipong ayaw mong makita pero kelangan kasi nga friend siya ng friend mo?
bwisit.
Yung tipong ayaw mong makita pero kelangan kasi nga friend siya ng friend mo?
bwisit.
Weight Loss Wait, Lost!
I am feeling frustrated that until now, I am still in my 200's, but the other day I weighed and I lost 4 lbs so that makes it 212.
I am hoping and praying that by the end of May I lose the last 12 lbs and that I can reach below 200.
Right now I read some blogs which chronicled their weight loss and have succeeded. Like this girl who who was from 220 down to 100's.
The problem I guess is that I am not upping my physical activity.
Food intake is not a problem since I don't eat that much carbs. And I only use olive oil.
I'll monitor my food intake from now.
NO TO JUNK
NO TO SODA
NO TO SUGAR
More Physical activities.
Thank you Lord.
I am hoping and praying that by the end of May I lose the last 12 lbs and that I can reach below 200.
Right now I read some blogs which chronicled their weight loss and have succeeded. Like this girl who who was from 220 down to 100's.
The problem I guess is that I am not upping my physical activity.
Food intake is not a problem since I don't eat that much carbs. And I only use olive oil.
I'll monitor my food intake from now.
NO TO JUNK
NO TO SODA
NO TO SUGAR
More Physical activities.
Thank you Lord.
I couldn't help but wonder
As I am sitting here typing, on my new Mac Book Pro I now christen with the name Daffodil, wondering and thinking about my Iovelife which at the very least I shall call nonexistent, after talking with a writer friend, I couldn't help but wonder am I married to my job?
It is sad when people seem to just accept the fact that they will grow old alone. I feel sad because I know it shouldn't be the case.
I feel like I am running out of time. I am 28 years old. 2 more years to spare before my big 3-0, and I feel sad for the people who has just accepted the fact that they will be OLD MAIDS.
Hay.
I hope I won't turn into one.
It is sad when people seem to just accept the fact that they will grow old alone. I feel sad because I know it shouldn't be the case.
I feel like I am running out of time. I am 28 years old. 2 more years to spare before my big 3-0, and I feel sad for the people who has just accepted the fact that they will be OLD MAIDS.
Hay.
I hope I won't turn into one.
Mac!
Today I just purchased my Mac!
It's a Mac 13 inches.
Post birthday gift to self!
Thanks Lord! :)
It's a Mac 13 inches.
Post birthday gift to self!
Thanks Lord! :)
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
the bitch is back
Yesterday I woke up and I had a thought.
Gusto kong maging isang PLUS SIZE MODEL
I bet some bitches who are chubbies like me can't aim for that because they are not as gorgeous.
Haha.
really. Extra vain today because. Wink Wink Nudge Nudge
All I really had to do was arrange for a photoshoot so that I'll have a professionally done portfolio.
I really want this!
I bet I can!
*******************
OK so a few nights ago I threw myself back at the SCENE
Yes.
This guy was OK. Not challenging but fun.
And he wondered why I never really drink.
I prefer not to. Because I palpitate and I run out of breath.
So.
It was fun. I am notorious for not committing and this thing won't be new.
But he called me this morning and guess what.
This may be a good time to have a guy that I can have at my beck.
Gusto kong maging isang PLUS SIZE MODEL
I bet some bitches who are chubbies like me can't aim for that because they are not as gorgeous.
Haha.
really. Extra vain today because. Wink Wink Nudge Nudge
All I really had to do was arrange for a photoshoot so that I'll have a professionally done portfolio.
I really want this!
I bet I can!
*******************
OK so a few nights ago I threw myself back at the SCENE
Yes.
This guy was OK. Not challenging but fun.
And he wondered why I never really drink.
I prefer not to. Because I palpitate and I run out of breath.
So.
It was fun. I am notorious for not committing and this thing won't be new.
But he called me this morning and guess what.
This may be a good time to have a guy that I can have at my beck.
kabayo
My new show is airing this July and yes it features horses!!!
Speaking of horses have you ever looked at a person's face and realize that he/she resembles a horse?
Mukhang kabayo!!!
And yes it's becoming a chore just to look at you. Fugly face.
Speaking of horses have you ever looked at a person's face and realize that he/she resembles a horse?
Mukhang kabayo!!!
And yes it's becoming a chore just to look at you. Fugly face.
Sunday, May 6, 2012
I wanna be married by the time I'm 30
Not Married Yet? Look for the New Mr. Right
Vickery Eckhoff, ContributorAfter
such a glowing review of your husband’s intelligence, kindness and
confidence, I went to your web site, Obsessed. The photos of you and
your husband [...]
Samantha Ettus, ContributorVickery,
I think you are talking about my business partner. My husband does not
appear on the Obsessed TV site. Even so, it is certainly the case that
if y [...]Vickery Eckhoff, ContributorI
wasn’t asking advice, thanks. And perhaps I have the site wrong where I
saw your husband’s photo. But he is still the very essence of looks and
money, tw [...]
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So if we all know what Mr. Right looks like when we see him then why do so many of us marry Mr. Wrong? Because most women are not thinking far into their futures when they fall in love. They are thinking about Mr. Right Now instead of Mr. Right Always. At a dinner party I was recently seated across from a non-profit executive. She mentioned that as a feminist, she sometimes feels uncomfortable with the advice she gives to young women; that to have it all you need to marry the right man. And last month, the newly iconic working mom and Facebook COO, Sheryl Sandberg echoed this when she said, “I tell young women the most important decision you are going to make is who your life partner is.”
So what does he look like?
The New Mr. Right:
- makes plans in advance.
- supports your career and ambitions.
- is proud of you when you achieve professionally.
- doesn’t expect to be waited on but does expect to help.
- loves children.
- enjoys doing things for you just as you do for him.
- knows who your friends are and makes an effort with them.
- spends time with male friends who treat women respectfully.
- doesn’t feel competitive with you. Your wins are his too.
I am consistently surprised by how many women tell me how “lucky” I am to have found my husband. Do they think I was driving and he fell onto my windshield? We met on a blind date. I had asked friends, colleagues, acquaintances to set me up with a man who was smart, kind and confident. See which words are missing? Looks and money. Neither of those last forever, but intelligence, a kind heart and self-confidence do. I worked hard to meet my husband and if you want to have your version of it all, you’ll work hard to find yours too.
Samantha Ettus is a bestselling author, media personality and speaker, passionate about helping working moms to design a successful and happy lifestyle. Connect with her at samantha@samanthaettus.com or @samanthaettus.
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