christmas season

i just came home from a raket. because i had to rush to get to this raket, i had to forego joining the abs-cbn tv prod party.

it's christmas but i feel that there is something missing, it's so palpable. the sadness. don't get me wrong, my career is fine, i am making money, family is ok but there is some blues going on and yet i don't know where it is coming from.

i might, actually.

there is this big deep sadness.

there is this big urgency to change.

and 2011 should be it.

i know in my heart that it can only get better.

it has to get better.

2010 was a good year. but 2011 is better. it will rock my pants out. i've been primed for that.