Relationship Numbers: 2 months, 60 days, 15 dates, 4 sack sessions

I saw this coming. 

In fact, I treated this as a social experiment above anything else. Was I a jerk? Maybe. But so is he. 

It's already 2 months in, and I cannot handle the situation. Sure we are officially a couple, but he;s got strings attached and I wouldn't want any of that. There is a long list of why I should end it. I cannot handle it. 

It's too bad, because he could be the one. Despite his looks and all, he is the perfect playmate and gentleman and boyfriend. So sensitive and caring and thoughtful. I want a Leo man for my next boyfriend. 

One thing I don't like, apart from the obvious reasons is that it seemed as if it's a non negotiable for him- And the last time I spoke to him about it, he didn't even reassure me, he just shrugs and shit. 

Plus he hides a lot of things in social media - his fb and instagram. There were posts about songs about wanting a girl to be his? WTF. Am I your girlfriend or what?

The dealbreaker was when we went to a bar, and he kept on checking out other girls. He was looking, leering. I can't tolerate any of that. WTF I am your girlfriend, but you talk about women in my face?

Also, I don't like his friends. Bunch of pa-cool oldies DOM types. I don't like his bestfriend who seemed to not like me that much. 

Maybe it boils down to my insecurity, but come on, I told him about it before that I am a jealous madwoman. 

So I break it off.

When I think about it, I know he'll get over it pretty quick, I wasn't that great of a girlfriend. It was his birthday and I didn't think of anything special. I gave him cake and we spent the night and that's it. 

Come to think of it, maybe I am the type who hates pressure in relationships. I just want to enjoy and have fun that's all. I don't want the meeting his friends thing, or knowing about shit about his life. But I want security as well -in terms of where the relationship is going. Plus, work always comes first for me. A boyfriend is an after thought, someone to chill with after a stressful day. 

I guess what this social experiment taught me- I just have to be alone for a while. regroup and focus on myself. 

So that when the right guy comes, right guy- in all aspects, I'll be ready and I'll be ready to be a great girlfriend. 

Fuglies

It's funny how a fugly person acts. Maybe it's defense mechanism, but the nerve of guys who would ogle other girls in front of their girlfriend. Red fucking flag.
The thing is, I was the one who downgraded. The nerve of this fucking guy to actually still look at other girls. What the fuck. Maybe that's what he wants and what he needs. And I will never settle for that kind of douche.
I freaking danced, caught his attention just to keep him fucking entertained. and that's what I'll get?! I'm not your freaking buddy mister.
whatever. It could be I'm freaking insecure. But I have the right to be, and to hell with people who think I shouldn't feel that way.
I fucking deserve someone better. This dude is a douche. And no more turning back. A-hole.

Plans

1. Watch movie then maybe eat at Zabo Chicken

2. Hanayo Grill (treat him with buffet)

3. Crazy Katsu

4. Tornado Peri Peri

5. Jog at UP then foodtrip Lonnga Rep

6. Hanamaruken Ramen

7. Ramen Nagi

8. The Food Club

9. Planet Grapes

10. Chili's

11. Tagaytay Baguo etc

Exclusively Dating The Nurse - 2 Months, 15 Dates, 4 Times.

Recounting the dates with Mr. Nurse.

First date: June 30. We met at Coffee Bean tea leaf in Trinoma. It was blind, but at least everything was eezy peezy because I wasn't as nervous as I was when I began dating. I was wearing a black dress, and he was in black also. After little getting to know you at Coffee Bean, we moved to Gilligans because there were no more stores open at the time. Had sisig and mojito.

Second date: We met at TYA, I had two mojitos and 1 vodka 7. I was wearing a miniskirt and black sheer dressy top. Drunk and tipsy, we kissed in the cab and I didn't go home immediately.

Third date: There was a storm at the time, and yet we decided to meet at Starbucks in Trinoma, we talked for hours. I was wearing a purple dress. First time I paid for the both of us because I was late and I cancelled our third date beforehand.  We kissed and made out in the cab. (July 13) He told me he loved me.

Fourth date: We met at Starbucks in Skygarden. I was wearing black pants gray top and jacket. There was also some MOMOL going on. He bought me snack treats.

Fifth date: Short break, went to Gilligans for some beer. I was wearing an orange top and miniskirt. He gave me some candies.

Sixth date: We went to Tomato Kick in Maginhawa. I was in my jogging attire.Had 1 beer. Jogged and made out in the middle of UP Acad Oval. Renewed some bumps along the way.

Seventh date: He fetched me from ABS Starbucks, I was wearing the purple dress again. We went to UP and parked the car and MOMOX'ed.

Eighth date: I was supposed to go to UP and meet him there, but it's hard to find a cab so he went to Skygarden instead. I was super annoyed and stressed! I was wearing a ghastly pair of jeans, and black top. I gave him half a dozen donuts.

Ninth date: He fetched me from ABS, I was wearing a black dress. Went to Senor Pollo for mojito and quezadillas.. And then, second time that I didn't go home right away. (July 30). I told him I love him.

Tenth date: I went to Maginhawa St and met him. I was wearing pants and red top.We went to Z Compound, had a coke and fries.

Oh my God. We already had 10 dates and I guess this is the stage when one can say that we are exclusively dating :)

Eleventh Date: I was in Kitchen of Cakes and Coffee, working. Wearing black pants. He treated me pasta dinner.

Twelfth Date: We had dinner at Taisho Ramen. I was wearing jeans and black top. We shared a bowl of ramen.

Thirteenth date: We had burger at Kithchen of Cakes and Coffee. His birthday. 3rd wink :) August 20

Fourteenth date: I went to visit him at his eatery in UP. It was a nice set up. I was wearing a black sheer romper. 4th wink. August 25

Fifteenth date: I went to UP again and ate burger and mojos and fries. Went to TYA after and I was freaking annoyed that he ogled other girls! WE BREAK UP.

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