matutupad na ba ang pangarap kong ipagmerge ang dalawang passion ko? eeeh. heto na. heto na talaga.

brain dead

talking and brainstorming endlessly.

the process can be difficult but I enjoy the learning process.

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inspirations

blast from the past

this is just so weird.

i feel like I am regressing back to 3 years ago.

people i haven't seen at work resurfaced.

and now some people coming back.

i hate it.

my insides are screaming.

you don't know it

but i despise

every little thing.

The Tree of Life

the film is perfect for individuals who like to ponder about life. About space and the earth. Philosophers. I for one got mesmerized. On a didactic level. On a shallow level. But inside my heart the film has a place. it was a spiritual experience.
i went home feeling hollowed. Like my guts are on the pavement. Slept and dreamt about it. How life is so fleeting. How God owns the world, how He can take anything. How every minute being and creation, is His. It was depressing and ethereal just the same. I loved it.

sigh

rainy weather isn't doing any good for my well-being!

it makes me think of that four letter word.

honestly. i hate it.

so what i did? i went to the gym!

endorphins are doing me great.

endorphins are like sex.

hahaha.

they are that orgasmic.

*******

no rice for July! let's do this.

i really want to slim down. especially my arms.

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unexpected blessing! my salary for week 9. wasn't expecting it at all, just the rf.so i'm glad. no need to live by pancit shanghai.

haha!

now i need to buy a new phone naman. =)

I phone or blackberry?

hmmmmmmmmm.

that's the eternal question.

and a watch.

excited.

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richest person in the world

I attended a meeting last night and I learned something.

We can never be content.

higpit sinturon

I have been living on bread and Pancit Shanghai and coke light for days now.

Because of a purchase that I did.

I have to be stingy. Damn apartment.

I have to take care of my belongings from now on.

But the new cam is so nice, it has video capabilities.

Oh diba?!

Basta it's perfect! =)

TO BUY:

shoe cabinet

a small clothes cabinet with lock for my laptops and cameras.

intrigerang palaka

hay!!! punumpuno na ako talaga.

die will you.

movies

so i was able to watch

GREEN LANTERN - so-so. somewhat good. entertaining with nothing much to remember after

SUPER 8- i enjoyed this a lot. i remembered my childhood as i used to play with friends this little filmmaking games and all that. very innocent and sweet.

FOREVER AND A DAY - didn't expect much from this but very sweet also. it made me cry. a movie is good if it is able to make me cry.

when i hear of other's misfortunes, i feel blessed

Thank You Lord...

Sobrang nagpapasalamat ako...

Kasi minsan nababalitaan ko ang lagay ng ibang tao...

Trying to survive from day to day.

Naranasan ko na mawalan. At yung pakiramdam na hindi mo alam kung saan papunta ang buhay mo.

Ngayon malaki ang pasasalamat ko.

I always remind myself to feel the gratitude and to be inspired.

Do better and be better.

Thank You for the increase, for the savings and investments.

Thank You for letting me enjoy this selfish life.

Thank You for letting me share my blessings to my family and the people I love.

Thank You Lord.

comprehension

sometimes I could be in a room full of people

People may be talking to me but I realize that my mind is wandering somewhere.

Either it reminds me that I need to finish something

Or that I simply don't want to be there.

Or maybe the thing bores me to death.

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Happy na approved na ang concept!!!

HAPPY!!!

Sige na! simulan na ito!

win some, lose some

thankful that the concept i presented was approved!

magic 11. here we go!

nakakasama naman ng loob yung pagbibintangan ka na hindi mo ginagalang at pinaprioritize yung mga bagay na ginagalang at pinaprioritize mo.

di ko naiintindihan.

di ko talaga nauunawaan.

nakakasama ng loob yung hindi mo alam ang dahilan kung bakit nagagalit sa yo.

dahil wala akong nakitang masama sa ginawa ko.

frustrated

hay ewan!

nababaliw na yata itong taong ito.

napakainsecure.

hay talaga!

kaunting mga bagay binibigyan ng kahulugan!

nilalamon ka ng sarili mong multo.

anong tawag sa yo?

weeks gone by

it's been weeks that weekends pass by like they are just a figment of imagination. You know, it is the weekend, but all you do is think think. Think about your job and the other creative things you wanted to do.

Sometimes I start the weekend with reading news online. Then I watch movies to get the inspiration going. I go to the grocery, grab some stuff for myself and then go to the salon and read while having footspa.

For food, I don't really cook the stuff I bought in the grocery, I order in. And actually thinking of where to eat stresses me out.

I have exhausted all the food chains in my area, I actually have gone as far as T. Morato.

And then I go back to thinking.

Weeks gone by and I haven't even noticed. I can't even have time for gym. Or when I do hang out with friends I feel guilty for not being able to think enough.

But that is life, and lifestyle. This is not just work but passion and a lifestyle.

I always bring my notebook and everything else to pique inspiration.

I visit sites like CNNgo, designismine, rogerebert.

I blog hop.

I go to a park or a cafe and people watch.

I listen full blast to the ipod.

I talk to strangers.

I go to the mall and impulsively buy a top or pair of shoes that I don't even want to wear on a normal work day.

My work desk is the desk I have at my place, full of cigarette ashes and little packets of ketchup from takeaways.

I go to meetings at the office but the real work is done here, in my place where I imagine people.

I want to plan ahead but cramming still works best.

Such is a day and time to waste before I can actually war with my keyboard and write the words.

”Self-respect is the root of discipline. The sense of dignity grows with the ability to say no to oneself.” Abraham Joshua Heschel

imdb

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm2627385/

may ganito pala! =)

stress!

Hay!!! I should be paid double! hehe.

Thursdays.

It's cold outside and it's raining. And yes it's a cliche but I want to stay in bed. Can't get any work done and it is true that when you grow old, it feels like sleep is one of the best luxuries you can afford.

I traded eating meals for sleep, I gave up on the internet, I gave up smoking, heck I even gave up brushing my teeth (once) so I can hit the sack ASAP.

So why am I writing this? Because it's raining and I want to sleep some more but I have to wake up so I am writing this entry so I can stimulate my mind a bit.

i am surprised that some people can't seem to move on.

these people with hang ups.

why are they so affected?

it's been more than 10 years.

it frustrates me to no end, but at the same time, i find them pathetic.

really. is your life so damn empty you cannot move on?

probably some of them are losers now that is why they are trying hard to hold on to glory days of the past.

sad person with joyless existence.

what a loser.

Life Habits to improve your writing

These are the life habits that I incorporate to improve my writing:

• Waking Early - I have found that my best writing happens early in the morning between 5-8 am. The house is quiet, my mind is slower, and the busyness of the day is yet to begin. As a result, the words flow with less effort. As a side note, I was not always an early riser. When I first began developing this habit, my trick was pretty simple: I would smile, put my feet on the floor, and look out the nearest window. It took some effort at first, but after a couple weeks, my sleeping habits had adjusted. And I would never go back to sleeping in late.

• Running - I have written countless articles jogging along the side of the road in my neighborhood. Because I rarely run with music, running provides quietness and opportunity to think. The blood is flowing and my mind is free to wander. Some of my best ideas have come during the longest runs of my life. Interestingly enough, lifting weights rarely has the same effect… only running.

• Reading – I prefer biographies. They challenge me and inspire me to make the most of my life. But it doesn’t matter if I’m reading fiction or non-fiction, books or magazines, something good or something bad, reading always produces better writing. Good writers are almost always good readers.

• Eating Protein for Breakfast - While I am not a nutritionist, I did learn early in life that protein for breakfast makes me more productive. It gives me better memory, sharper thoughts, and longer concentration. As a result, I have eaten two eggs and one piece of toast at breakfast for as long as I can remember. The whole process (cooking, eating, cleaning) takes me approximately 15 minutes and always starts my day off right.

• Drinking Coffee – There is a reason coffee is one of the highest consumed beverages in the world. While the stimulant of caffeine certainly helps coffee make an appearance on this list, it seems there is something that can’t be beat about just the whole experience of sipping a fine cup of coffee. It adds pleasure and richness to my day. And at the age of 36, it still makes me feel like a grown-up when I drink it.

• Finding Solitude - There is a direct correlation between the intentionality in my life and the amount of time I spend in solitude. By electing to intentionally withdraw from human relationships for a period of time, I am able to reevaluate the assumptions, claims, and messages of our culture. Solitude provides opportunity to rediscover my life… and these new discoveries often find themselves into my writing. With that as the backdrop, there’s no wonder why Leo Babauta called it The No. 1 Habit of Highly Creative People.

• Changing my Environment – Whether it be writing in a local coffee shop, at the library, in a bookstore, or outside in the summer, changing my environment almost always provides a fresh look at the words on the screen. The new environment encourages new connections and synopses in the brain that help stimulate the writing process.

• Attending a Religious Service – I have always embraced spirituality. I have found that it inspires me to think beyond the physical aspects of our everyday life and search for deeper meaning in the world around us. Going to church causes me to intentionally think about issues of the heart and soul. And because of that, it almost always pushes me further in my writing.

• Using Pen/Paper - While the actual words of posts/articles/interviews/books are always written on a keyboard, most of them are brainstormed and outlined on a piece of paper. I prefer one blank sheet of paper and one black pen. By the end of the outlining process, it is always marked with words, arrows, circles, numbers, and scribbles. But the marked up sheet of paper provides the perfect first step and foundation for putting the actual words on a finished product.

• Traveling - Traveling provides opportunity to experience new people, places, languages, foods, and customs. It has allowed me to see life from a new angle and appreciate different aspects of it. I’ve had the privilege to experience a number of different countries and cultures over my short lifetime. Each of them have made me a better person… and a better writer.

• Setting Goals – In all walks of life, goals move me and shape me. Whether it be running a marathon, finishing a book, or planning a party for 10,000 subscribers, goals always provide an added dose of motivation and momentum to my writing. When I have a desirable and achievable end goal in mind, my writing always benefits. And when I don’t, it suffers.

I have found the 11 Life Habits above to be the most helpful and instrumental in my writing process. As a matter of fact, when even one of them is lacking, I can sense it immediately in my personal creative process. But we are all different. No doubt your list will look different than mine in some regards.

Consider sharing below in the comment section which life habits improve your writing.

If you don’t have a list, I encourage you to find one. Start by implementing some of the habits above and give them a 2-3 week trial period. If they are not helping, that’s okay… just try something different (for example, I know a number of writers who write better late at night rather than first thing in the morning). The goal is to discover which life habits stir up the creative process in your life.

Because when you are writing at your best and sharing your life experience with the world, we all benefit.

be inspired

4:25 am thoughts

I went to the gym today after being a lethargic sissy for days and i loved it.

will have to keep doing this for the next coming months.

sigh

“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.”

20 great things about dating a writer

20 Great Things About Dating a Writer →

52hearts:

Here’s a look at 20 reasons to date a writer:

1. Writers will romance you with words. Dating a writer means that you will receive love letters. Quirky notes will turn up in your pockets. Flowery descriptions of everything great about you will be shared on special occasions. See my recent post on things to write someone for Valentine’s Day for an idea of what you may receive when dating a writer.
2. Writers will write about you. Date a blog writer and you’ll find yourself bookmarking that blog to see if there are references to you in it. Date a poet and you will see yourself reflected back in some of the lines of poetry that the person recites at open mic nights. Your narcissistic tendencies will be happily fed when you date a writer. Of course, the drawback here is that dating a writer means that personal details about you may turn up in written form and the writer may write much less flattering things about you if you break up.
3. Writers will take you to interesting events. Writers, as a general rule, are curious people. We like to go to lots of different types of things so that we can widen the boundaries of our life experience and therefore broaden our writing. When you date a writer, you can expect to be invited to everything from burlesque shows to roller derby races to foreign countries.
4. Writers will remind you that money doesn’t matter so much.People who write for a living don’t do it to get rich. They know that money may matter but it’s not the most important thing in life. Dating a writer will help to remind you that it’s important to pursue your passions.
5. Writers will acknowledge you and dedicate things to you.Writers are big on acknowledging those who have helped them. Almost every book at the bookstore has a page for dedications and / or acknowledgments. Song writers and poets frequently include a dedication on their work. Date a writer and the world will know that you’ve supported someone in the arts.
6. Writers will offer you an interesting perspective on things.There is a writing quote about how writers taste life twice - once in the living and once in the re-telling on the page. Writers pay attention to interesting details in life so that they can recapture the world in their writing. When you date a writer, you will be privy to all of their insights about life’s events and experiences - and you may find that you get to see things in a whole new light.
7. Writers are smart. The majority of writers are intelligent people. They are usually well-read and well-educated which means they can hold their own in many types of conversations. Dating someone dumb just isn’t fun for long; dating someone smart is always an interesting challenge.
8. Writers are really passionate. Writers use all of their senses. They are passionate about their work and passionate about their lives. Your life will be enhanced by this passion for things when you date a writer.
9. Writers can think through their feelings. Writers may be really passionate but most of them don’t fly off-the-handle with emotion. They like to take time to process things. This ability is a true asset in a long-term relationship.
10. Writers enjoy their solitude. Unless you’re in the honeymoon phase of your relationship, you probably want at least some time to yourself and time to spend with your friends and family. Writers want time to be alone to write and think which means that you’ll get your own much-needed space as well.
11. Writers are creative. This sounds obvious but it has a deeper truth to it. Creative people are more capable of coming up with solutions to problems in life. Dating a writer means a chance to come up with creative solutions to life’s problems.
12. Writers wear their hearts on their sleeves. Sure this depends on the writer but most writers are pretty good at articulating what is going on with them. If they adore you, you’ll know it. If they’re mad at you, you probably won’t have to guess at why.
13. Writers will teach you cool new words. Writers love words. It can be irritating when they use ten dollar words in normal conversations but it can also be kind of fun to stretch your mind and build your vocabulary. Expect to play lots of Scrabble when dating a writer.
14. Writers may be able to adjust their schedules for you. Writers who can set their own schedules might be willing to rearrange things to spend time with you. They might be happy to meet you for a long lunch or to spend a luxurious morning in bed with you. Don’t expect the writer you’re dating to give up all of his or her time - they have to work regularly to pay their bills just like anyone else - but do know that there are some scheduling perks possible when you date a writer.
15. Writers can find 1000 ways to tell you why they like you.Writers are wordy and they like to express themselves. You can bask in the glow of hearing good things about yourself in ways that you’ve never heard them before. Of course, some writers will also be all too happy to tell you your faults so make sure you date a kind writer!
16. Writers communicate in a bunch of different ways. Most writers are pretty flexible in how they communicate. They’ll be just as content to get an email from you or to chat on IM with you as they are to talk on the phone (maybe even more so). This means that however you communicate regularly is probably fine for the writer you’re dating.
17. Writers can work from anywhere. This is nice because it means that writers can happily travel with you. They may have to take a laptop and spend some time at the hotel when you go to the beach but you can enjoy much easier vacation planning with a writer than with someone who works a 9-5 job.
18. Writers are surrounded by interesting people. Writers have a lot of characters in their lives. If you like meeting interesting people, just plan on being the date that goes along to parties and other gatherings with a writer.
19. Writers are easy to buy gifts for. Writers are happy with little things. Most writers like getting books as gifts. Since they aren’t really into the pursuit of money, they aren’t going to be chasing you for the big bucks you spend on them. This doesn’t mean you shouldn’t spoil a writer if you want to but you should know that they value thoughtfulness way more than most material things.
20. Writers are sexy. There is a reason that people have fantasies about the school librarian. Male or female, those bookish types are hot hot hot.

debrief

So the other day I was able to read a big bad book of birthdays in the lounge of our company's big conference room. I was waiting for our team's turn to present our new teleserye concept so I decided to read a bit.

As I was reading that big bad book of birthdays, turned the page to April 25, I realized something - the person being described isn't me!

Haha.

It's crazy to believe in that kind of stuff but as it happens, I am in need of an inspiration.

Plus when it comes to zodiac signs, there are some things that might be true, there are some that are not.As I was informed, zodiac signs are archetypes - one of these signs will fit your personality one way or another.

So let me spill the juice. The book described me as basically a calm, serene, peace loving person determined to succeed. Check.

My negative traits said that I am- unforgiving, unaccepting, overbearing and a snob!

I have a thought. Some stuff from the birthday book is true. But the interesting thing is this attitude of being a snob.

Yes it's true. I am a closet snob. I am sort of a racist when it comes to people I meet. I always look for substance.I read somewhere that when it comes to meeting and surrounding yourself with people, you should always look for people who can teach you things. People whom you can learn a lot from. As much as possible.

Okay being a snob is true and is one thing, but the other three negative traits are just not true!

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Sometimes when I sleep at night I get bombarded by thoughts. Thoughts on what are my goals are. I have a goal, and I have achieved it to some degree. So now that everything is quite calm, I am becoming restless. I assault myself with these questions - Who am I to the core. What are the most important stuff for me?Because really, you cannot go on living without something to inspire you.I read that I am materialistic. And this is true. I like to travel, gain possessions, invest in big stuff.

But more than that, the question remains. Who are you to your core? The intangibles. Those are the hardest things to come by.

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I am thinking of taking up a masteral course. Philosophy minor in Philippine Studies. How does that sound? I am starting to enjoy philosophy. And i want to be an advocate of tourism in the country.I also want to teach. There is nothing as precious with trying to share your knowledge to people around you. I like the idea of mentoring.

procrastination

The height.

Cinema Paradiso soundtrack playing in the background, bottle of perrier on one hand, the other flicking a cigarette.

Yes.

That's the height of procrastination.

Looking at beautifully designed houses over at designismine, etsy finds, wow.

If I were not a writer I would probably be an interior designer.

Or a professional traveller if there is such a thing.