so i

just finished this poetry collection, a commissioned work.

Pat is tin week 2, soon.

this weekend:

will set my mind into writing this new opportunity to have a pen name. where can i find inspiration to be kilig??? over the weekend! 100 pages of Tagalog pocket book romance here we go as in literal.

a concept that will replace Magkano ang iyong Dangal, will have to submit on Monday also.

press releases and sales for Habang may Buhay


prepare for a meeting for a new commissioned work on Monday

Secret Diary of a call girl season 2

heart ache!!!!
ughhhhhhhhhh

I can sympathize with Ben. Haaay.

A Puddle

One day I saw my mirror.
While he is crying by the hospital bed.
My ideal character beside me
She was dry.
But I thirst for his liquid.

That turned into this beating human inside me,
As the puddle mirrors me
I unconsciously splashed myself.

With his sweat. blood. tears.
And by the chillingly cold corridors

We both cried.

While the puddle of liquid

Of lost life ,

That was wiped away and put

Into white gauze and thrown,

Into a black plastic bag,

Cry as loud.

out of blog theme thought

what if i start a fashion blog? aliw yung fat nurse and fat shopaholic fashion blogs na nababasa ko!!!!!!!!!!!!

writing assignments

my life is all about...mellow laidback bored mellow tamang chill na busy...mellow to busy busy BUSY!!!

nang walang pasabi.

will work on:
- poems/play submission for this contest
- short romance novel submission for a raket
- indie screenplay assignment na ang tagal tagal nang hindi ko pa nagagawa dahil tamad ako magresearch at dahil wala pa akong naeepiphanize. paano ako magkakaepiphany eh wala pa nga akong research?
- at ang pagbabasa ng pilot week ng aking bagong show
- at ang meeting na aattendan ko on tues for another new show
- may isa pang magazine raket sa apr 28

jusko sana kayanin ko lahat ito over the bday weekend. pero happy!!! maraming opportunities!!!
kelangan ko lang bumalik sa passion mode...mahirap at matagal ang briefing ko pag ganyang napapahinga ako sa passion projects ko. Aminin, syempre ang una nating ginagawa pag may mga assignments ay yung mga mabilisang bagay na may bayad at sweldo. yung mga pangcontest diba naiipon ang passion at kapag kung kelan malapit na saka nag-kacram.

exciting din itong novel submission nato - isa sa writers dito eh idol ko sa indie e.

so anyway come on bridge, passion projects gogogo!!!
two new shows work workwork!!!

tama na ang pagkahumaling sa travel. hahaha.

di naman. naaliw nga ako in fact 29 dollars na ang naiearn ng blog ko!!! www.pinaywandergirl.blogspot.com gogogo!!!! happy!!!! click here!

pero for now, trabaho at passion muna!!!

I was laughing at my first post

It's April and I haven't turned in a good screenplay yet. Sir Bing will kill me. I probably won't turn over a decent screenplay at all because of my busy-ness over work and my expensive vice which is traveling.

Palanca's deadline is on the 30th. And I created something (not a screenplay). Actually not created something, but actually revised something which i already did before.

Whatever that means.

passion post

pardon the passion post. my heart swells, and anytime its gonna burst.

traveling will be as necessary and as central to this new thing im working on. my heart swells. it's near. last night was fun...and inch by inch closer...this is a humungous thing. and a leap from my status...i've never wanted anything else...last time i felt genuine passion was when i was fighting for Habang May Buhay to air. i feel my toes tingling...

I feel blessed with projects that I have emotional attachment with or meant something to me personally. Well MTV is for music, SN1 is for showbiz and Little Big Star seasons are for music and for discovering talent. Banyera was a tribute to Batangas where I grew up (HMB is Batangas too haha), Ligaw na Bulaklak was a tribute to horse racing, and a play on the experimental film i did in college which was about "bukis". KFK was for kids and my fascination with Chinese. The Wedding is the most contemporary which reflected some of my philosophies and dilemmas on love, HMB is for nursing and my mom and concept and pathos of infidelity. And this current show for the network is for big people like me hehe. And the other one is the very first fantasy show. And now this current travel thing...my God. And this food magazine writing... im so excited...my heart swells.

just when i thought im too dried up...i can feel the beat that my heart skipped.

people in the restaurant last night, whom i overheard. they are eager to go home to catch the show...people emailing me for the articles i did. seeing my name on the tv screen, on the byline. i don't know what is...is it pride? is it prestige? is it passion? fame? love? i don't know.

and the minute i go to bed at dawn today, i realized, i am so in love with what i do...that i am so fired up to do more. bigger. bolder. higher. that loving it so much makes me realize and feel that i am not ready to let this go. i love this. i love it. ive come to the stage where i'm in love with it that it's unbearable to do anything else. it is. i don't know why exactly. it's hard to explain. and i don't know what sparked it, what made me realize it, that im in it for the long haul. that i love it. that im ready to fight for it, to defend it, protect it. feel raw about it.

and to me accepting it is hard... much more to declare. it took a lot of stuff to realize this. to embrace this self-realization. for me it's a sign of vulnerability. that acceptance of loving something so much it makes you cry. gone are the days of pa-cool. of pseudo hating the masa stuff and trying to be higher. have i matured? stripped off of pretensions? but this is it. i am immersed. i am in love. i truly, genuinely love what i do. and it's a blessing already - knowing finally what you love. secondly is doing it, soaking in the thing that you love. and the third thing is enjoying it especially when it's loving you back.