i miss writing for TV

My show already said goodbye, and now I'm angsting for this afternoon show that we are supposed to be doing but keeps getting delayed. So there, I just want to say it.

just found this somewhere

“Creativity is born from anguish, just like the day is born from the dark night. It’s in crisis that inventive is born, as well as discoveries, and big strategies. Who overcomes crisis, overcomes himself, without getting overcome. Who blames his failure to a crisis neglects his own talent, and is more respectful to problems than to solutions.

the seoul drama award website blurb i passed for the nomination says this

BRIDGETTE M. REBUCA started out as a concept developer in ABS-CBN, then as a writer for a showbiz-oriented talk show called “Showbiz no.1”. She also wrote for“Little Big Star”(season 1-3) a reality-talent search show that aims to highlight the drama of discovering kiddie singers, including world-renowned Charice Pempengco. She eventually worked as contributing writer for afternoon drama (“Prinsesa ng Banyera” /“Ligaw na Bulaklak”), and conceptualized “Kung Fu Kids”, a children’s action fantasy series. She currently writes and brainstorms for the primetime teleserye “Habang May Buhay”, and for a new afternoon show that is still in development.

i wonder what happened

the waiting game

it's like a hunk a gal like me can't resist. he can sleep with me and leave me hanging the next morning. or worse he can foreplay with me without giving me orgasm and yet i keep coming back. abusive. arrogant and inconsiderate.
yes we are in bad romance.

i am romancing other things now, and im so sure that when he comes knocking again i'll drop everything in a heartbeat.

damn.and the next time that happens i will ask him to marry me and sign that contract damnit.

raaaaket!

game show raket! and this time with some writers i havent worked with for the longest time.

im excited. zooper

what i've been watching

Grey's anatomy finale! - the finale is better than the whole series! GA has mastered the art of the season finale

Mad Men - wow! my favorite!

Chuck - my comfort series

Currently Watched:

Away we go - big director trying to be small and create fragile characters but failed big time

Prince of Persia - the usual. makes me hungry for kebab and persian places so we headed to Mr Kabab after

eggziting!

if only the episode VCD is not hanging! arrrgh.
will deal with this on Sunday.

for now preparing for day 3 shoot of Ganap na Babae

writer's studio project

i got a lappy and i am ordering a tarpaulin with the city of paris printed on it that should cover my entire wall!

i like

its best to be enterprising these days
makes me wanna make pagawa a calling card.
what should it contain?

Bridgette Rebuca
drama writer/magazine writer/freelance writer
filmmaker/photographer

facebook is getting old

and BADUY. with pa-cool people who talk about nothing but their boring jobs. and speak in vernacular. im a closet racist. so kill me.

why do i write?

writing, especially for drama is an exercise of the heart. of emotion. i think i have a bourgeois mindset, i am too polite, i want good things that i assume that the world is a mom who hugs people who weep and not push them downwards. i see tragedy from the boob tube or the silverscreen. that's why to write from the heart is a hard pursuit. who am i to invent a life people should watch? is writing borne out of masochism or megalomaniac follies? every week you open your heart out and serve them on a silver platter just to get the words and the right emotions out. every week you cry, because of the scene you wrote. and it's all vicarious. it's not as if these things happened to me, but i weep for the tragedy of the character that i am writing for, i weep for the injustices of the world. and when people cry for her, i feel one with her. it's a personal job. it is a job, still. it's all untrue. but there is a lot of you in the program you're writing for. there's a piece of your heart in there. and that's precisely why i write. not to get hurt, not to experience a bigger world, but to feel and to care for something else. who cares if people watch, who cares? i do it precisely because i feel and i share. i invent. i create. is it to get those sleeping lethargic demons out? is the locust of my personality exterior to me? do i write so that i can be proud of myself? or just so people would envy this job, or so that people could be proud of me? no. i don't give a crap about writing to entertain, either. first things first - i write for myself. it is completely selfish. but i write because i want to, i write because i feel. i write because i care and i love.

Another Into the Wild Quote

I'm going to paraphrase Thoreau here... rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness... give me truth.

Peggy Olson

grows on me. such an ambitious little minx,. i love her! i cant wait for season 4! Man Men is my current favorite series!

shoot!

1. i like being called Ms.and Direk
2. i like blocking and directing the talents
3. i like explaining and motivating the actors, comes naturally to me as i am firstly a writer
4. i like shooting the establishing shots and non wordy scenes by myself with the DOP
5. i hate operating the clapper
6. the long hours can be taxing
7. i like that im getting physical exercise
8. i like the burning pain after a whole day shoot
9. i like the finished product
10. i wanna do this again