i hope it's not any indication that i would blend into nothingness after a year.
i want to freaking shine next year, i hope i hope i hope

empty

hay. i don't want to play the insignificant person card. i want to be visible and great and brilliant. i want to be challenged to do great.
i don't know if i'd feel relieved or sad that i won't be the one to present that concept. I hope it gets approved though. the two concepts, so that i'd get to write. Also, i hope na makuha ako dun sa isang running show. :) Help me Lord.

Restlessness

I don't know what is going on.
But I hope there is no looming surprise somewhere.
My heart feels like it's been beaten
I am nothing but bruises.
I want a break.
A big break.
I want to do more of this.
Why is it suddenly so elusive?

Caught between a rock and a hard place

Why can't I find the inspiration?! I'm so down and out. I just cant seem to find color in the thing that I do. I want to be amused. I want to strike gold. I want to burn. But I just feel pressure and disenchantment and disillusionment. My emotional state is at the bottom. Damn. Please dont throw this away.